Can you think back to a time before you knew someone really important to you?
I was 17 years old when I sat in the second row of algebra II honors. I knew from the second I looked at the first homework assignment that the honors part of this class wasn’t going to fly. I needed out! School had this rule about not being able to drop/switch a class till 4 weeks into the semester. Sigh. In those weeks I dreaded, I never caught eye to someone who would have a huge impact on my heart.
The day I could swap the class, I was skipping into my counselors office signing papers and dancing my way out of the door. I was downgraded to algebra II – minus the honors. Woohoo, Praise Jesus, hallelujah!
Then out of the blue this underclassman who sat behind me in the dreadful honors class missed my vibe from the second row. I can remember that he was in that class, but I never let him catch my eye because I was so focused on the negatives and fear that class brought me.
So, this soccer stud made a statement and simply said “hey” on Facebook messenger. Now isn’t that cute. It took a week or two for that “hey” to turn into a conversation. And it took a little persuasion to actually hang out… a puppy persuasion to be exact. But little did I know that stud would have my heart for 5(and counting) years. It’s so strange to think at one time I was in the same room as Blake, but never acknowledged him. (sorry babe)
This story popped into my head and it made me think of God in a way. I think sometimes we are in a place where we feel uncomfortable, scared, or out of place and we forget to look around and see that God has been sitting behind us the whole time.
Some days we are so busy, focusing on one thing we want to happen that we miss out on seeing the works of God in that moment. We miss out on seeing God in the midst of our worries. When we miss out on seeing Him we miss out on being aware of His works in our troubles sooner.
Maybe you don’t know God. Maybe you are so caught up in what is going wrong, like how I was so caught up in how difficult that honors class was. Maybe you are seeing straight through God sitting behind you, when all He wants to do is talk to you.
Ya know, there is a saying that goes something like “if I had my life to do all over again, I’d find you sooner so I could love you longer.” I’d like to think that’s how I feel about Blake and God. I believe it all worked out how it was supposed to. However I can look back and think if i'd only acknowledge Blake a little sooner, I'd be laughing and loving him a little longer. I can also think back to times and think I wish I had opened my eyes to see God in times when I only saw my fear and saw straight through him.
Don’t miss your moment with God simply because you are focused on one tiny fear. Don’t miss out on God because you feel alone and stupid. Don’t miss out on love because you are blinded by your fears.
Maybe God has you sitting in an awkward, not so perfectly fitting situation for 4 weeks so you can touch the hearts of those around you. Pretty soon you’ll come to find that suffering for those weeks was so worth the love that has come from it. Open your eyes; don’t miss it.
In the midst of worry, fear, pain, troubles, and difficulty God is there. He is working, forming, and wanting to talk to you. Don’t miss him. Don’t wait for him to message you on Facebook. Find him sooner, so you can love Him longer.