Kicked Out

You know those picture perfect stories we come up with in our own little minds. The ones we hope our days will play out like. It's nice up there in our own little world, isn't it? 

I once had this picture perfect idea of how college would play out. I pictured my cute little, perfectly decorated dorm room being the center of memorable laughs, face masks, thin mints, and gossip girl marathons. I had this simple little scene playing out in my mind; I thought for sure it would happen just as i'd imagined. 

But it never really goes as we imagine, now does it? I lived up in my own little world. I felt safe because in my own little world they all knew me and I knew them. I had control over my circumstances.. or so I thought. 

I live in my own little world but it’s ok they know me here
— unknown

And then my plans came crumbling down with. Straight out the cafeteria scene in Mean Girls, you know the one. It's the scene where Gretchen Wieners shouts "YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US." That's kinda sorta what happened. Just three short weeks into school my roommate asked me to move out. In my mind it sorta kinda went like "YOU CAN'T LIVE WITH US ANYMORE." So there I was packing up my cute little dorm room, along with the ideas/plans I had. My fresh start at college didn't start off as I'd expected. 

I felt safe in my own little world I couldn't understand why God paired me up with a roommate who would pull a Gretchen Wieners on me. Why would God go and ruin my perfectly laid out plans? 

That's the thing, isn't it? Sometimes we get so comfortable up in our own little minds; we are all we think and worry about. And then something goes wrong. Something goes against our script we played out in our minds and we feel scared, lonely, and filled with worry. Where we once felt safe in our own little minds we now feel completely out of control. Our lives feel outta whack. And it is in that very moment God is trying to speak to your worried heart and say: "but wait, don't rely on your own plans sweet girl- there is SO much more. I have SO much more in store for you, but you're gonna have to trust me and not your own idea of what's to happen." 

The only way God can show us He’s in control is to put us in situations we can’t control.
— Steven Furtick

Maybe you're like me and you got kicked to the curb, your plans are outta whack... or maybe you're just having a rough day. But let me tell you, there is so much power in trusting God's plans over your own script. 

Let God intervene in the times where your plans fall short. Let Him in. You may not know why, or how, or when it will make sense- you may be filled with anger- but even if it doesn't make sense, dancing around in God's plans is much better than eating thin mints while watching a gossip girl marathon. 

As I felt safe in my own little world, God made an intervention to get me out into His world + trusting in him with my dreams/plans. Let Him do the same for you right now and in your times of struggle. God steps in and ruins your plans just to remind you: "Hey sweet girl, stop relying on your own little world and mind. Step out on your faith and trust that I will take you so much further than laughter, face masks, and thin mint binges with your roommates." 

His grace covers me. This is all I know. All I need.

He's got us covered. His word is true. He never changes. 

xoxo Em